Holiday Funk

I cannot believe it has been almost a month since my last post. There are so many reasons I have not been on here, but I think it comes down to the fact that holidays are very tough. I have always loved holidays to me it means time with family and creating traditions and keeping up with those traditions. Well that is the thing that is so hard to deal with there is a huge part of our family that we can never get back. Gabi came into our lives and so quickly she was taken.
A couple of weeks ago I was watching ER, one of the doctor had lost there child, 5 years had passed and she was talking about it to her husband. She said when you lose a spouse you are a widow when you lose your parents your are an orphan, but when you lose a child there are no words. This is probably about the time of my last post and well need I say more...

Oh my precious punky Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. The holidays will never be what we had dreamed of for our family. You were a blessing sent from the heavens above. We were the chosen ones to have been touched by an angel. You will always have our hearts and you will NEVER be forgotten. I am so sorry it has been so long that I share my thought with you. Sometimes I think it makes it harder when I do, because then it is real. WHY? WHY? WHY? My heart aches everyday you and will forever. I find peace in the fact that we will be together again, but until then it hurts so badly! I love love love love you, now forever and always!