Sunday, September 28, 2008

Smiles for your Monday morning...

The lastest stats on Kinsley...she is 12lbs. 15 oz and 24in. long. My baby is 2 feet tall, that is almost half of me she is gonna pass me up before she is in school:)

Things have been awfully busy around here and I don't see things settling down anytime soon. So for now here are a ton of pictures. Have a lovely monday morning and hopefully I can find time later this week to put a real entry in here. But I know how much everyone loves pics, so I didn't figure anyone would mind...

I am not proud of my girls at all huh!?!

Monday, September 22, 2008

Dreaming an Angel

Sorry for such the delay since the last entry, I just haven't really been in the mood to blog. You would think that with such a beautiful healthy family I'd have so much to say...I do, but it just doesn't seem right to be so happy when inside I am so sad.
It has been a while since I have had an emotional entry, so be prepared. I am so sad but not for the reasons many of you would think. I am obviously mourning the loss of my child, but I do not feel like things are going the way they should. Who says how I should feel or not feel, all I know is that what I feel now it has to be wrong. I am in such a state of denial. I see her pictures everyday around the house and it makes me smile. But I often wonder who she is what I mean by that. She was here for such a short amount of time we were cheated and did not get to know her the way I always dreamt for any of my children. She blessed us with an entire new outlook on life, she made us better people, she touched our hearts in a way I will forever be thankful for, but she broke my heart the day she left. I still have anger in me that I thought would be gone. I feel like it was all a dream. Gabi came into our lives and as soon as we got comfortable she was gone. I had a dream last night and when I woke up this morning it felt so real. The dream did not relate in anyway to Gabi, but when I woke I had to pinch myself back to reality! That is how I feel about my precious baby. I know she was here in my arms. I have pictures and her toys, her clothes...tons of her things, but it is all just stuff...Where is she? Why isn't she here to wear those clothes, play with those toys, be in more pictures? More importantly why did God think she was better off in his arms rather than mine, I am her mother, how could anyone be better for her than me? And how will Kinsley ever know enough about her? I feel like I don't even know enough to be able to tell her all she should know about her sissy.
I fear forgetting I feel like everyday she becomes more distant in my mind. She is forever in my heart, but when you have so few memories they seem to fade and that scares me to death.
When I look at Kinsley I see so much of Gabi in her. Obviously they look alike they are sisters. I never saw down syndrome when I looked at Gabi, that is not who she was, she was this perfect little angel that gave my life new meaning. And now when I see Kinsely I see a new reason to keep going after such a tragedy. And my sweet Gracie, she keeps me going as well. I hope someday she realizes just how much she helped me stay focused on her and Kinsley. I have to give Jason credit too! There are days I would love to just stay in bed, but with 2 girls on the go and a husband who depends on me as much as I depend on him...we all have to keep focused!

Punky, Mommy misses you more everyday. I thought that with time it would be easier, but it is not. I cannot wait to see you again! I wish I could hold you, kiss you, love on you and someday I will. But until then I will be missing you like crazy...xoxoxo I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE you with all my heart and soul!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

4 months later...

Thursday we had a huge moment I hope to never forget...Kinsley rolled over for the first time! It was like watching Gabi's first time. I was so excited, I called Jason immediately...he was on his way home from work. As soon as he arrived I layed her down and she did for him a few times, she is a show off just like Pink and Squishy! I screamed I was so excited! Before you know it she will be crawling, IKES...I don't think I am quite ready for that!

Last night when I put her to sleep she rolled a few times and couldn't get back over, she screamed and cried. I went in and turned her over. Finally I ended up putting the little foam thing that keeps her from moving around. I feel bad cause she a wiggler, but I am afraid she will roll over and get stuck. I know I know she will figured it out, but I am just not ready for her to do it on her own:)
We think she is starting to cut teeth as well. She constantly has her hands in her mouth. She gets fussy if she is not chewing on things, and she drools ALOT!!! We could be wrong, but she really enjoys her teething ring and the teething tablets...we'll see!

Well enjoy the pics...

Check out that shirt...Daddy is a Rock Star

Gracie's crazy braids

All dressed up for church, notice the dress Kristy:)

Teething ring and her Nike bean

Standing in her crib for the first time...seriously what is next???

Friday, September 12, 2008

And the Awards go to...

My friend Alisha over at Izzy 'N Emmy's blog gave me the Brainy Blog Award. Apparently she thinks I give good insight on things...Thanks Alisha!!

I proudly accept this award, so I must . . .

1) Think of at least 5 bloggers that you believe to be “Brainy Bloggers”

2) Post it on your blog for all to see! Let them know you’ve awarded them by email, twitter, etc or via a comment on their blog!

3) Share some linky love and link back to both the person who awarded you.

4) Come back to the Brainy Blog Headquarters to sign our Mr. Linky and then pass it on!

I would like to pass this award onto the following brainy blogs:

Megan at Miracles Happen

Amy at Kaden and Angel Ava

Carey at Dream Big

Pam at Rhett's Journey

Amy at The Flege Farm

Ladies I hope you will accept this award. You can find the full description of this award and the html for the blog award in two sizes at the Brainy Blog Award Headquarters.
Thanks again Alisha for thinking I have good things to say:)

A Touching Moment...

Learning About Down Syndrome ...CBS Night News

After watching the clip from the link above and thinking back it makes me even that much more blessed that we were chosen for Gabi. Although there are some comments I do not like or agree with in the report, it is still a good story. I am so thankful that someone in high profile is bringing attention to our children who very rarely get the attention they deserve! Gabi was the best thing that came into our lives. We give more, want less, find happiness in every situation, and love better. Gabi and all her little friends are the most compassionate people I know. Our involvement will continue as Gabi lives on in our hearts.

Here is a friendly reminder, if you haven't signed up to walk with our Team Gabi's Grace you better do sign up...t-shirt deadline is next friday, the 19th!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

A Day to Remember

For those who have lost their lives and those who continue to fight for our freedom, we give thanks. It is so hard to believe that 7 years ago today the attack began. I just hope that soon we can find peace and bring our men and women home!

Monday, September 8, 2008


Hard to believe this was only 2 years ago. I have truly been blessed with an amazing husband, and 3 incredible little girls. Not a day goes by I don't wish our first little angel was here with us, but every other aspect of my life with you baby is PERFECT!!! With you by my side, and me by yours, WE can accomplish ANYTHING! I love you so much, thank you for being my rock, my soul, my best friend... LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

BaBy GiGgLeS

Kinsley is getting so big so fast. I have been meaning to post some video, figured it would be a great way to start off your Monday. Daddy sure knows how to make a girl giggle!

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

this could be yours...

DEADLINE, Just Around the Corner

Attention all interested in joining Team Gabi's Grace for the 2008 Buddy Walk...The dealine to order t-shirts with our team name printed on them is just around the corner, Friday, September, 19th. We want to thank everyone so far who has joined but I know many of you out there have not signed up yet, Mimi and Papi, Mema and Papa, not to mention a few other family members as well...HINT HINT HINT!!!

I have made it easy for you, click on either picture and it will take you directly to the page you need to join our team or if you can't be there to walk, make a donation!

On that same note I am so excited to announce that we have made one of the top list for the walk. We have made to top 5 for the Largest Pre-Existing Team, we have 18 walkers so far. I know of 8 more that will be joining, the largest team has 29 members, I am sure we could get that top spot, but I need your help...JOIN OUR TEAM!!


Tuesday, September 2, 2008


Ok so I have been trying to leave the code for the buttons to our blog and our website for people to be able to grab them, I have come to a total blank. I can't figure out how to make the little box come up under the buttons...someone PLEASE HELP ME!!!

email me the directions, I would GREATLY appreciate it:)