Wednesday, June 25, 2008

One Year Ago...

It is so hard to believe that a year ago today I was spending the last night I would ever have with my precious Gabi at home. She brought more joy to our lives than I ever imagined was possible in such a short amount of time. She taught us of the true meaning of life. She taught us on how to stay focused on things with real value in life and how to give. She taught to not take one single moment for granted, live each day as if it were your last. And most importantly she taught us what the Ultimate Gift of life love and be loved, unconditionally!

I remember actually being happy that tomorrow was our big day, surgery, the day that would fix her, the day that was suppose to be the best thing for her. Often we wonder if we did the right thing, if the doctors did everything they could, if God did what he could. But I guess ultimately God did what he could and he knew Gabi was special and she had a higher calling than to be here with us. Unfortunately though it was at the expense of our hearts. We are so proud to have been the Chosen Ones for her, God knew that with the time she did spend here with us we were the best parents for her. We are so blessed to have been touch by an angel!

It has been a while since I have had an entry all about Gabi and I apologize to you all and to her. I have been so focused on trying to be the best mommy to Kinsley and Gracie. I had a very hard time in the beginning of my pregnancy connecting with Kinsley, I was so afraid of losing her. But now that she is here, words cannot describe how much I love and adore her. She is the perfect piece to my broken heart. Don't get me wrong my heart will forever be incomplete, but having her has given me another reason of why it is so important to continue on as if Gabi were here with us. I believe Gabi made a deal with God that the only way she would go with him is if he gave mommy and daddy another baby girl to love on...and of course he pulled through:) God works in such mysterious ways I will never understand why it had to be Gabi, but I am so thankful he chose us for her mission here.

I miss my little punky more than you can ever imagine, there is not a second of the day I do not think about her. I sometimes wish we would of done things differently, but if I concentrate on that I would never make it through a single day. She will forever live in our hearts and someday we will be together again!

I love you Gabriele Sheridan! Mommy, Daddy, and your sisters miss you soooo much! Be a good girl and be sure to rock the piggies today and tomorrow, afterall that is your signature do:)


little.birdy said...

You are the strongest person I know. I love seeing all the pictures of your beautiful family. May God continue to bless you.

Anonymous said...

Aww, you're a great mommy and Miss Gabi is smiling down on you guys I'm sure!!
Love you,

Kiss Miss. K for me :)

Isabella said...

Micah that was beautiful. I know you miss little Gabbers so much!! I am so glad the Lord blessed you with Miss Kins. She, just like her big sis is also such a precious little sweet pea. You know we love you guys and you are alawys in our thoughts and prayers. I can't wait to see you in a few weeks. I will call you soon.
Love Ya

Anonymous said...

Your little Kinsley is absolutely beautiful! she look SO big in all the pictures! You have such a blessed family! Gabi has definitely taught everyone so much about life. Her and Ava has definitely taught me more than i could ever imagine! You guys are always in my thoughts and prayers!
P.S. you look great for just having a baby!! :)

Jen (Kaden & Angel Ava's aunt)

Heather said...

I am just another mom, who checks in on your beautiful family often and am constantly amazed by the grace by which you all live your lives. You continue to bless others, many of us strangers,by the sharing of your story and the journey thus far.Thank you for unselfishly giving pieces of your heart so that we end up changed for the better because of it.

Nicole said...

Your example and wisdom is truly a testament to God's love and grace. I know that Gabi misses you too and that she is so proud of you!

I can not believe how big Kinsley looks already! She is stunningly beautiful just like her Momma and sisters!