One Year Ago...

It is so hard to believe that a year ago today I was spending the last night I would ever have with my precious Gabi at home. She brought more joy to our lives than I ever imagined was possible in such a short amount of time. She taught us of the true meaning of life. She taught us on how to stay focused on things with real value in life and how to give. She taught to not take one single moment for granted, live each day as if it were your last. And most importantly she taught us what the Ultimate Gift of life is...to love and be loved, unconditionally!

I remember actually being happy that tomorrow was our big day, surgery, the day that would fix her, the day that was suppose to be the best thing for her. Often we wonder if we did the right thing, if the doctors did everything they could, if God did what he could. But I guess ultimately God did what he could and he knew Gabi was special and she had a higher calling than to be here with us. Unfortunately though it was at the expense of our hearts. We are so proud to have been the Chosen Ones for her, God knew that with the time she did spend here with us we were the best parents for her. We are so blessed to have been touch by an angel!

It has been a while since I have had an entry all about Gabi and I apologize to you all and to her. I have been so focused on trying to be the best mommy to Kinsley and Gracie. I had a very hard time in the beginning of my pregnancy connecting with Kinsley, I was so afraid of losing her. But now that she is here, words cannot describe how much I love and adore her. She is the perfect piece to my broken heart. Don't get me wrong my heart will forever be incomplete, but having her has given me another reason of why it is so important to continue on as if Gabi were here with us. I believe Gabi made a deal with God that the only way she would go with him is if he gave mommy and daddy another baby girl to love on...and of course he pulled through:) God works in such mysterious ways I will never understand why it had to be Gabi, but I am so thankful he chose us for her mission here.

I miss my little punky more than you can ever imagine, there is not a second of the day I do not think about her. I sometimes wish we would of done things differently, but if I concentrate on that I would never make it through a single day. She will forever live in our hearts and someday we will be together again!

I love you Gabriele Sheridan! Mommy, Daddy, and your sisters miss you soooo much! Be a good girl and be sure to rock the piggies today and tomorrow, afterall that is your signature do:)