Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Things to Remember...

Get It Down; 31 for 21

Today I went to my first group meeting for parents who have lost a child. Talk about a club you never want to be a part of. It breaks my heart that I was there, but it felt so good to talk about my little angel. There were 2 others moms there, but my mommy came with me I was really glad she was there. The other women have such amazing strength, but it is so hard to relate when everything is still so new and unrealistic...I kept thinking the whole time...I DO NOT BELONG HERE! I want to go home and see my baby, hold her in my arms, snuggle with her in bed, kiss her all over, squeeze her little tushy!

Mommy, I love you so much, thanks for always being there for me! You're the best!

Before the meeting mom and I went up to visit Chelsea, and of course it made my day. Chelsea has such a beautiful smile, and Carey well I don't think I even need to say, she is amazing. It was the first time my mom really met Chel, she feel in-love with ehr instantly...who doesn't?
After the meeting I had to take some toys that made it home with us after our stay to the PICU. Nurse Shelia and Debbie were working. We got to visit with Shelia briefly, unfortunately we were ready to go and Debbie was busy, so we left. Sorry Debbie, we love you though:)

So tonight I want to leave you with this...
Remember Gabi:
her contagious smile,
her sparkling personality,
her big beautiful eyes,
her amazing spirit,

Most importantly remember her and how she brought so much love into so many lives!!!

I love you angel!

P.S. Happy Birthday Great Papa Bowles, we love you!!!


Isabella said...

I am so glad you decided to go and I am glad your mom got to go with you!! Today is the big day for your appt right? You better let me know how it goes!!
Love Ya

Gabi's Daddy said...

Sorry I didn't get to go to the meeting with you baby. I was there with ya in spirit. I'm so proud to call you my wife. You are an amazing woma that gave me an amazing little girl! Still trying to figure out sometimes how I got so lucky!

Love Love Love

Anonymous said...

I know it's so hard.. but just know all the other mothers were thinking the same thing in their heads.. Sometimes talking about makes it easier, because you don't keep all the emotions bottled up.Atleast mom went, or you probably would of felt all alone! Glad to hear that Chelsea is high in spirit..God bless u.... and it almost makes me cry to read ur husbands message..he seems to amazing.. can't wait to meet him

amy flege said...

iam sorry you have to go to that meeting seem so strong tough and i am sure the other moms there were thinking the same thing as you!

Anonymous said...

Hey! I am so sorry I missed you! I was having a crazy night. Hope to catch you next time!

Love ya!
Nurse Debbie