Friday, January 30, 2009

And the search goes on...

Well we continue to search for our sanity! Jason is still searching for a job he can make his career, but we haven't had much luck. He has 2 really big interviews these next 2 weeks. Talk about nerve racking, I feel like we just keep beating our heads up against the wall. He enjoy selling cancer policies, but it is just not cutting it. With today's economy there is not extra money out there that people are buying extra policies, which means no income for us. So hence the reason for continuing the search.

As for me, I have made a huge decision which will go into effect in the fall. I will be going back to school to get a degree in Elementary Education. I have been toying around with the idea for a while now, but thought that since I just had Kinsley it wasn't the right time. But the more I think about it the longer I wait I will always have an excuse for why it is not the right time. So I figured if I at least wait until fall I can get all my ducks in a row and we will just make it work. Plus I don't plan on going to far from home, Baker University is about 15 minutes away. And I have already talked to them and it will only take me 2 years and that includes Student Teaching. And by the time I finish Kinsley would be 3, so I could get her in Preschool and I can work again. Which would help tremendously, I feel like Jason has so much pressure on him, that if I could contribute I would feel so much better. Don't get me wrong I LOVE staying at home with the kids, but I find myself needing something for me. I hope that doesn't sound selfish. I put my girls ahead of everything. There is NOTHING I wouldn't do for them, but again I need more. And I feel like at that point Kinsley will be getting into school and play groups and well I will have more time for me.

Plus we still haven't decided if we are gonna have another baby. Somedays we want one more, somedays we don''s scary when everything is so perfect now! And by that I mean that Kinsley and Gracie are healthy beautiful girls, and I am so afraid of what happened to Gabi happening again.

Now as for the girls. Gracie is growing up so fast. She is doing very well in school. And she has made some great new friends. It is so exciting that she is here in town with us now. And we get to see her so much more. Jason and I are so thankful for the time we have together and we get to be involved in so much more now. She just recently had to get glasses, which are super cute! She is near sighted, the dr. said it may actually correct itself with time, so we'll see. She really likes them. I don't have a pic. yet, but I will be sure to post one soon. She is quite the stylish little thing, but would you expect anything less???
Hat Day at school
And of course PJ Day

Now as for Kinsley well I think I will let the pictures say what she has been up to.

Spaghetti need I say more???

She is now walking a few steps at a time with the walker, and she loves it!

As you can see she REALLY enjoys her bottles, if you didn't know you'd think she was a lush!

And I think my mom would tell you, she gets this from me. Sleeping with her bootie stickin straight up...when I was her age of course!

And finally our little Rock Star in the making!


Mia hat eins mehr said...

Wow, Kinsley is so big. Time seems really to fly.

I totally understand that you are scared of the future, I always say that people who had to go through situations like we had to, totally loose their innocence and faith in the human matter of course that everything turns out well in the end - not true for us. I wish you the best for your family and I think it`s a good idea to get that degree!

waving from germany,

Rachel said...

Man I cant believe how quickly they grow up. I have a bottle baby too. She is 18mo old and I can not get that bottle away from her. I think it's cute, and she remains my baby with the bottle, but the doctor, on the other hand, says "get her off"... I will, but in time.

Gracie is adorable. I think she'll luke cute in glasses. Two of my boys where glasses and I love them. One is near sighted and the other is far sighted.

As for school, to teach....GOOD FOR YOU! I think that is awesome...more power to ya girl. I hope it works out!

Thanks for the update!


Kaden and Angel Ava's mommy said...

I too go through the thought of going back to school to get a teaching degree...and like you find reasons for not doing it at this time. I am happy for you and I think that it sounds like perfect timing!!!

I can't believe how big the girls are getting. Time sure does fly by, doesn't it???

Well, as always, thinking of you.

Oh yeah...we will be in the PICU with Kaden so you guys are more then welcome to stop by.

Carey said...

yay! El ed! You'll do great, I'm so happy for you! And good luck to Jason on his interviews!

Anonymous said...

Hey there is no time like the present to go back to school. I am so proud of you...with one degree already not too many people would do that because its too hard. You will always have my support and help to get it done. You can do it at your own pace and I know Jason will help with the girls cause he's a good daddy! By the time you are done Kinsley will be ready for big girl preschool. If you don't do it now you will just keep making excuses...and one day you'll be a crochety old person wishing you'd have done it...anyway you go girl. Your college days went by fast and so will this. I am sure you will get negative feedback but you have to think about your family and what is best for you guys. I love you and am so proud of you. You "always" do for everyone else and even with this decision you are always thinking of others...Thats my girl. That is why I am soooooo proud to call you mine...Keep you chin up!!! xoxoxoxoxo Love, Mommy